♥ † shay

Just Because

My son is 6 months!! It’s crazy to see how much he has grown. He’s sitting up on his own, he loves playing on the ground, he won’t crawl yet because he prefers to roll lol on October 4th two bottom teeth appeared but he’s still not really into any food. He hums when he’s sleepy and tonight will be the 5th night he has slept in his own bed (mind you this is the 5th night of me being restless without my baby) he loves his johnny jump up, especially when he can swing in it, favorite toy is this little ducky with wheels and a wolf stuffed animal. Enjoys his baths, being outside and listening to others talk. You are one smart boy Kenneth Lamont. Mama loves you.

I pray my son doesn’t remember all the nights I curled up next to him and cried.

I pray my son doesn’t remember all the nights I curled up next to him and cried.

You made me a mother

I felt you. You were a pea. Then a lemon. Then an eggplant. I followed advice. I read twelve books. I quit coffee. Could you tell I was scared? I talked to you, sang to you… I wasn’t ready. But then you were here. Ten toes. Eight pounds. Love. Big fat love.I held you. I fed you. I realized that I would spend my life doing things to make you happy — and that that would make me happy. And then there are the times I want to give up. You’ve made me rethink my sanity. You’ve made me want to fall on my mother’s feet and tell her that I get it. But then you smile and you say my name — and you grab my hand with those little fingers. We’re growing together. We are seeing the world like it’s new. I will open my heart and love will rain down all over you. You’ll giggle, and I’ll do it all over again. And we will walk hand in hand. Until you let go.”I made you, but you made me a mother.

So blessed to be able to see his smile each day..

So blessed to be able to see his smile each day..

So I’ve made it almost 4 months breastfeeding without a drop of formula.. this is honestly one of the best decisions I made for my son and myself as well.

So I’ve made it almost 4 months breastfeeding without a drop of formula.. this is honestly one of the best decisions I made for my son and myself as well.

My son has already taught me so much about myself in these past 3 months… My whole life I was always teaching myself not to get attached to people, that nothing is forever and after my father passing away I thought I was meant to be left, that a persons love for me was only temporary.. but my son looks at me with so much love and assurance, sometimes I look at him and just cry because nobody will ever quite realize how much I needed him.

I love reading to him, he always smiles and acts as if he knows what the story is about

I love reading to him, he always smiles and acts as if he knows what the story is about